Zayn—what's going on in his brain? So many thoughts he can't contain. He had to give his mouth free rein, so an exclusive interview The Sun obtain(ed)—Zayn.

Zayn Malik, fresh from leaving the immensely popular boy band One Direction amid rumors of infidelity, has broken his silence about his correct and good life choice (being in a very popular boy band seems like a damn nightmare) (plus he has a lot more time to work on his graffiti room now, which we all know is his real passion) in an exclusive interview with The Sun.

"I can't do this anymore," he told the tabloid, adding that reports claiming his exit was due to tensions with his bandmates "couldn't be more wrong." He continued:

"You know, I did try to do something that I wasn't happy doing for a while, for the sake of maybe other people. Basically, I'm only upset [because] I feel like I may have let them down."

He also feels like he's let his fans down, which is objectively true:

"I feel like I've let the fans down but I can't do this anymore It's not that I've turned my back on them or anything. It's just that I just can't do that anymore because it's not real to me."

However, he says he "has never felt more in control in [his] life," which makes sense, now that he is in control of his life for the first time in his life, adding, "I feel like I'm doing what's right, right by myself and right by the boys."

OK, Zayn.

Zayn—the boy band life he couldn't sustain. Ranter than nonstop complain, he got up and went on his way(n)—Zayn.

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